I am sure no one reads this, I don't even think I have ONE follower. Lol.
Anyways, I am in a place where I am DONE with "HIM".. Essay. I have changed my number, moved on and I am now in a place where I am trying things with an old flame, more like, The Love Of My Life, again. Last year things were rough between us, he cheated, things ended badly and he hurt me beyond belief. I didn't think that there was ANY way i would EVER forgive him but I am learning to. I am trying to trust him and I am trying to put everything in the past. YES it is hard seeing as he works with his EXGF, WHO he "supposedly" broke up with to be with me, BUT I am learning to try and be a better person and understand we ALL make mistakes. Clearly I am ONE of those people who make mistakes. I have made many in my life. I have lied, cheated, stole, broken hearts and made my self vulnerable to life. I am over trying to be someone I am not. I am tired of letting my pride get in the way of happiness and getting angry for no reason. I am trying to let go and move on.
I have been hurt and deceived but I am looking forward into the future with my love. I hope it all works out this time and IF NOT, at least I wont think "what if".. Ill know, FOR SURE that he will never change. I love him and want to marry this person but sometimes its hard to trust in this world we live in.
With this person I have never felt more connected and in love than I have with him. Its hard to beleive but even before and AFTER essay, there was ALWAYS "L".. He has my heart forever regardless if we dont work out.
Ill let you know what happens. :)
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