16.

Well, its been almost a month, give or take a few days.
He is STILL in my life, but not for the good. We talk, try and keep it cordial. he MANNED up and took his part like he was supposed to. He calls me to say hi and to ask more times than not, for me to come over and spend the night. I don't. I have said NO everytime and/or made an excuse as to why I can't and why i didnt answer my phone when he called to wonder why. He drives me insane and not in a good way. I thought this blog could have been something that him and I could look back on and enjoy. Something that we could use as a memory of how it all started. Now, it just looks like another pathetic love blog with some random screwed up girl that likes to steal girls husbands. It was NEVER my intention and it NEVER EVER will happen again. He is now "supposedly" engaged to this girl that broke us up. I wish nothing but happiness upon them but i KNOW that wont happen. He is too fucked up in his mind to have a normal stable relationship.. Shit, he calls ME still to see if I can come and keep him company. I have tried to tell her but she doesnt believe me. She said it's he said, she said bullshit. Of course she thinks that. She doesnt want to believe that HER MAN, could EVER cheat on her and want to be with anyone else. Well like "I" have learned, "You lose your man, how you gain him".. I should have listened to my close friends when they said that. Lol.

Now, I hate to always be bitter and horrible about him but its just SO amazing to me how someone in this LIFETIME can be SUCH a douchebag. I don't know how someone can go thru life and think its OK to treat people like this? I know that I FUCKED UP and ruined a lot of friendships over this but that was something that I prepared for and understood that it was something I gave up to be with him. Essay. I just didnt know it wouldnt mean as much to him as it did to me. He says his feelings HAVENT changed for me. That when he saw me for the 1st time after a few weeks, he realized that he still LOVED me? WTF? Well now you and your "out of town fiance", can be together and live happily ever after. She will be here or you will be there in 15 days.

Its all bullshit.