I hate..

That I love you more than you love me.
I cant let go.
I cant stop loving you.
I cant stop being insecure about past things.
I love/hate fighting with you.
That sometimes it SHOWS that I care more about this relationship than you do and it hurts.
That I am more considerate and compromising than you.
That NO ONE in your family likes me.
That sometimes it bothers me, but I act like it doesnt because ALL of my family likes you and asks about you.
That I still think every now and again that you will hurt me and cheat on me like you did before.
That you are SHADY as FUCK sometimes but you act like you arent.
That in the past you were into weird things and I check your cell phone bill to make sure you arent still doing those weird things.
That you STILL work with your EXGF and when you leave work late, BAD thoughts run thru my mind.
That after reading ALL of this I dont know why I am still with you and continue to put up with your BULLSHIT.

ugh.