I want to LOVE with all of my heart.

I am trying. You make it so hard. Last night, we had a good night. We went to the movies, shared a hot dog, popcorn and chocolate covered peanuts. We laughed. We were excited to go back to my house to have a good night, and then you brought up dumb things to fight about. Other girls, other guys. The SAME things that we ALWAYS fight about. It's not worth ruining our nights over. I HATE it. So I made you leave. I didnt want to fight and I knew that we both would have laid in bed together wanting to hold each other but letting our pride get in the way. I don't know why we do this run around and it gets us right back to the same spot we were in before the fight.

NOWHERE.

I love you. I want to be with you and I want this time around to be better than before. I missed everything about you, EXCEPT how insecure you are. It's CLEAR how insecure you are but you say you arent. We all are. I am scared to start this whole thing with you again but I AM. I am taking that risk. To LOVE with all of my heart.

I wish you would do the same and let me know that you are into this as much as you say you are. I need proof. I need reassurance sometimes. Can I have that? Please.

Just love me with ALL OF YOUR heart. We can get thru this. I just wish it wasnt so hard for you and me to get over all the bullshit. I want the warm days when we first started dating. Where it was NOTHING but happiness and love. Where we would make out and have passionate sex ALL the time. Where you would tell me EVERYTIME you saw me, how beautiful I was and how you couldnt live without me. Now its like you can be alone for days at a time and not care if we see each other.

I want to fall asleep with you more times than not. Be passionate. Intimate. Loving. Caring. Trusting. Can we just go back to that?

<3